Lesbian, bisexual.. Lesexual?

I have been corresponding with a lesbian on black hair media for a little while now. I have really been sturggling with this whole issue, I just wish I new exactly. I sent her a rather long winded message of which I am going to post below. What are your thoughts?

***WARNING: Phone sex and masturbation talk follow WARNING***
I feel like I have been getting a lot of conformation, but also I am not sure if i am just forcing the whole lesbian thing and I really am bisexual. The case in point is two or actually three different men I chat with online. At this point in time I dont ever get that excited with them, but just a while back I did. The twist to that though i could never orgasm just talking to them, i would always have to read something usually about a woman to get excited enough, and i have never orgasmed w/phone sex with a guy i have always faked it.

Now, yesterday i was in my car and doing the whole phone thing only he had like a really short trigger and was done supper fast (seemed like 20 seconds) so I was left on my own devices. Remember the post I made about not being able to get off w/the vibrator? Well, I used to not be able to get off w/out any type of media, book, story, video, audio whatever. Well I think for the first time since I was like gosh 14 I did yesterday with no trouble at all, and guess what I was thinking about… a girl! I don’t think i could have orgasmed thinking about a guy i didn’t even try to it was all about this one girl.

Also, I am confused with the feelings i still get around guys like that nervous feeling like i want them to notice me, but then i wonder is that me just really wanting their friendship (i have always loved to have a lot of guy friends) or wanting them romantically, or maybe it’s just me feeling compassion for them which will be essential once i am a nurse. Maybe it’s just b/c i am a flirt w/my guy friends always have and i think i always will be that just how i communicate LOL even w/the gay guy at my work (hes the only one at my work i have told and he told me about a gay club id like to try sometime).